Imposter Syndrome
Imposter Syndrome (noun): a collection of feelings of inadequacy that persist despite evident success. Symptoms include: chronic self-doubt (oh yeah) and a sense of intellectual fraudulence (oh yeah x2). She really is THAT BITCH. I’ve been a musician for over 28 years. Every time I pick up my instrument, I feel like I’m playing it for the first time. I know I’m good, people have told me this. But, again, those feelings of “not good enough” come creeping in. I’ve played on multiple stages, multiple times, and yet...I feel like a fraud. People PAY ME to play music with them, and for them! WHAT IS WRONG WITH THEM? What is wrong with me? When I talk about my musical life and the adventures and places it has taken me, it feels like an out-of-body experience. When I go to work everyday and I teach, it feels like an out-of-body experience. I don’t get it. Fast forward into teaching...I love my job. LOVE MY JOB. I love being a music teacher...but wow...I